IgnoRANT...

"You should really wait until 39 weeks to induce. It's better for the baby! And now it's a LAW!"

No, Jane, you ignorant slut- it's a recommended guideline to prevent inductions of "convenience." Not mandated law.

I never thought I'd have to defend myself for having an induction considering my daughter DIED at 38 weeks. The above stemmed from a public forum, but I just realized I've been deflecting side-eye comments for WEEKS from people judging me for what they assume is my "choice." 

Allow me to state, very plainly, that this is NOT my choice. My ideal birth would be one in which I didn't have to panic and fret about the state of my and my baby's health/viability for the entire pregnancy. My ideal birth would include an epidural, which I cannot have thanks to the blood thinners I would, ideally, NOT have to inject myself with each night.

My ideal birth would be the happy occasion it's supposed to be, not surrounded by fear.

You're damn right I'm indignant that it's been implied that I'm "lazy" or "taking the easy way out" because I'm being induced. That I continue to be judged for circumstances I have no control over. 

This isn't "lazy." This isn't "convenience." This is love. That's my belly and my left side, bruised and blood-blistered from the nightly shots I take. Next week I get to start doing it twice a day. 

So, Yeah, you wanna come at me with those "lazy" comments again? Because I will destroy you.